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Geeks like me [29 Sep 2005|02:30pm]
Im moving to a new name soon. Wont be telling many people what it is. It will be 100% private and it will definitely be updated , unlike this journal.

For now, I just wanted to invite geeks like me to watch this IFC channel spirit award nominee film. Its called Waking life. They will be giving it at 6:45pm ET. Go to IFCTV.COM or the official site: Waking life movie.com to check out when it will be given in any toher time zone. Its my type of movie. It has a purpose, meaning and the truth, the way I like to see it.

here is a short description:
Independent Spirit Award nominee, Best Director. Employing a revolutionary technique that combines digital video and animation, Richard Linklater uses the same rambling, multi-character format he pioneered in "Slackers" for this dream-like meditation on life.
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[13 Sep 2005|03:12pm]
ok, I feel a bit scared to put this link here because I know I bombarded you guys with links to free stuff before and many of you just cant stand them or maybe you have a secret obsesson with them . In any case I got this link in an email today and in the state of poverty that Im in nowadays a shopping spree would be great. I haven't gone shopping in so long and it was worth a try when I heard you DON'T have to complete any offers to win. So I signed up and all you have to do is take some quizzes. No, I'm not the quiz taking type,I hate memes and if you ever see me complete one then it means I have gone completely bonkers. Not that they are bad for other people it's just that while trying to complete a meme I keep wondering when I will finish. I dont think I have the patience for them. BUT! These quizzes are different because they are like some quizzes that you may have already taken and are fun because they relate to fashion. and who loves fashion? Women!  They also have links to the hottest trends and items you may want to buy for the fall and winter. But like I said its all about the quizzes. So why not take quizzes you would normally take anyway and maybe win yourself an ipod or a $250.00 shopping spree? before you go there maybe you want to  see some screenshots of the site: Read more...Collapse )

So go on..try it out!
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Liar [09 Sep 2005|10:28pm]
I was going towrite something here but realized I need anewname.. ugh, sound like such a ..whats the word? Liar.

I will be back.
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[09 Sep 2005|01:03pm]
People!! this sweepstakes ends on September 30. The chances of winning are good. Im not even going to give all the details because you can get them in the site. It only takes 1 minute to sign up and proceed doing web seaches using the blingo search engine. Then invite friends to join and if they win you win too.Time is running out, c'mon people. Its so simple!

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[06 Sep 2005|10:25am]
I am thinking of coming back and releasing some of this piled up stress but under a new identity.
Especially now that Big C is starting school. I have so much to say..soooo much. I get lazy to write it all. I need to change that because its all right in my shoulders.

Any ideas for a new name let me know.

btw, I have been reading all the ljs, well, at least the ones im able to catch up on. I know what everyone is up to and I must say that while a few dissapoint me others make me very proud.. but hey who am I to judge? Im just hoping for a better fall and winter . My summer could have been better.

Anyway, i found this yesterday and thought it was pretty cool. I havent won anything yet but its easy to try.
So join now, it takes 1 minute to join if you type fast.

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Emptiness [19 Jun 2005|01:06am]
when life pulls the rug from under you, where do you go? what do you do?
where do you now stand?

Im falling so fast , im going to hit the ground like a big sack of potatoes , Im not sure
how im going to stretch my legs for the landing but I know that they will not be strong
enough to hold me up .

I can only hope that my girls never have to worry about where they stand or how they will fall.
It is not a way to live a life. Not in the least.

When things dont go as expected we get dissapointed we try to understand where we went
wrong and how we can get it to work. SOme of us are never honest enough with ourselves to
get past that point. I had a taste of reality, it hit me like
a ton of bricks. A few years back I felt numb from all the struggle and the justifications
I had made for our problems, I thought that I would never get over working so hard and getting
so little in return. TO him the little he gave was a huge deal to him. It
was like giving away his technics turntables which were worth alot of money. So in a matter of speaking he gave them away dozens of times to me. I was not happy with those turntables I expected more.

SO 8 years and two kids later we both sit at seperate computers , we look back to see each other and tell each other we are hungry.
Our backs see more of each other than our faces do. Our children slowly observe this lifestyle and do not question what has become normal to them.

Our everyday life consists of one word. WORK. It can be me working to keep the kids happy and healthy , or work to keep the house clean, or clients happy, or him going to work everyday tosee empty faces in the train only to have him introduce me to them in our arguments.

Im not sure why he tells me about empty people.I guess he needs me to know that his ride to work is empty.
Dilled with nothingness. When he comes home he has nothing to give, nothing to share and most of all nothing to receive.

Our earlier years together drove me insane, or in a more real way of putting it I was pushed to my limit.
I was tried and tested everyday like a daily routine, like the way people who have their coffee everyday
drink it with a sense of consistency. It was like I looked forward to my next challenge, what else would I fix, how else could I keep our relationship going. Whilst he only look forward to seeing how we could get by on his "hustle".

I watched Oprah religiously the way dogs must lick their ass after they poop, it was that fulfilling.
It satisfied me to learn and grow from other peoples troubles. I would have a tape ready to record crucial information that would finally convince him that we had hope and if they could do it , so could
we. If only I could convince him to watch the tape we would be in marital bliss right now. SO what if I want to blame it on a tape! Its my tape.

When I look at myself in the mirror I see a young girl in a used body. Like if I had stepped outside of my
body at some point and stepped into another. My face is worn, tired, pale and thin. Undereye circles are common among my features, they no longer look foreign. My clothing floats against my body with little embrace and I wonder if they will ever be a part of me.

This night ended quite as expected yet very empty still. He says he will try his best. Which to me means he will continue to give me his techincs.
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this shit is funny [07 Jun 2005|12:35pm]
just had to share this shit. :)

The Most Functional English Word?

Well, it's SHIT... that's right, shit!

Shit may just be the most functional word in the English language.


You can get shit-faced, Be shit out of luck, or have shit for brains.

With a little effort, you can get your shit together, Find a place for your shit, Or be asked to shit or get off the pot.

You can smoke shit, buy shit, sell shit, lose shit, find shit, forget shit, and tell others to eat shit.

Some people know their shit, while others can't tell the difference between Shit and Shineola.

There are lucky shits, dumb shits, crazy shits, There is bull shit, horse shit and chicken shit.

You can throw shit, sling shit, catch shit, shoot the shit, or duck when the shit hits the fan.

You can give a shit or serve shit on a shingle.

You can find yourself in deep shit or be happier than a pig in shit.

Some days are colder than shit, some days are hotter than shit, and some days are just plain shitty.

Some music sounds like shit, things can look like shit, and there are times when you feel like shit.

You can have too much shit, not enough shit, the right shit, the wrong shit or a lot of weird shit.

You can carry shit, have a mountain of shit, or find yourself up shits creek without a paddle.

Sometimes everything you touch turns to shit and other times you fall in a bucket of shit and come out smelling like a rose.

When you stop to consider all the facts, it's the basic building block of the English language.

And remember, once you know your shit, you don't need to know anything else!

You could pass this along, if you give a shit.

Or not do so, If you don't give a shit!

Well Shit, it's time for me to go.

Just wanted you to know that I do Give A Shit and hope you had a nice day, without a bunch of shit.

But if you happened to catch a load of shit from some shithead........

Well, shit happens!
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Please help Lexi. [25 Apr 2005|03:28pm]
I just got off the phone with my sister inlaw and she burst into cries telling
me that the baby in her life Lexi, her 2 year old female pit bull, suffered a complete
rupture of left cranial cruciate ligament, she needs a tibial plateau leveling
osteotomy to correct this injury of her knee. She did this chasing a bunny rabbit. Its a major
surgical prcedure and she has already undergone the same surgery of her right
knee on November 18, 2003. The cost of this is $2000.00 so I am posting a paypal
donation link on the page linked below. If you are an animal owner/lover you know
how devastating this can be to see your pet hurt. We would appreciate any donation
you make. Every penny counts. In return all I can offer are gmail invites, which
holds upto 2000mb of email including many cool features. Below is a picture of

Donate to help Lexi now.

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Ok, its HERE!! IM SO EXCITED ABOUT IT COMING. I want to thank :

Nicole (supadivinemama)
My best friend Lee
My dad
and my cousin

For completing offers resulting with my receiving an IPOD!!!

Its a great thing but even greater thing when I give it to my dad who needs it more than I do for his work day, driving around in his van. Love my pops!

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[13 Apr 2005|09:48am]
I miss those days when I could stare at a blackhead in the mirror for hours searching for more, but now Im loving that My older daughter now points them out, saves me time in the search.

I miss savouring every pasta shell or grain of rice and washing it down with a nice tall drink, but now I love when the baby lunges toward my plate and grabs my fork and smacks my glass of milk , creating pasta milk soup, its so much better than plain old pasta.

I miss reading a book , page by page, but now I love that baby helps me realize that some pages just arent as juicy and rips them right out.

I miss sitting at my laptop for endless hours and getting work done, but now I love when my girls pull me away to make farting sounds and to shove 4738749832 skittles in my mouth, I could never have enough.

I miss sleeping curled up under my warm blanket and waking up at 11 am, but now I love waking to my baby curled up around my body and her squirming to drink my milk and suck the life out of me! I love it!

There is nothing compared to the blessings I have now but so help me GOD If I hear Dora the Explorer sing , we did it! we did it! one more time I WILL YANK EVERY HAIR OFF MY ENTIRE BODY WITH A TWEEZER and spoon feed myself MADAGASCAR ROACHES! DONT TEST ME PEOPLE!

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dont get me wrong i like mariah as much as the next chick [13 Apr 2005|12:28am]
does her hair have to blow in the wind on every video?

i guess thats pretty random but thats how i have been feeling lately. I havent posted in like forever just because when i think of what I want to write i get exhausted just thinking about it and decide to keep it all to myself. Its not very healthy I guess but its the only way to go right now. The only thing on my mind right now is my lack of focus. I always manage to plan and think up many future ideas but with all my multitasking I end up getting nothing done. How ironic.

We finally got curtains for our apartment. We replaced the table cloths we had up on the windows and finally joined the jcpenney family of curtain shoppers. Who the heck pays 400 for curtains!? We did, well he did, he felt we had never gotten some proper curtains so he made up for lost time. I guess we will keep these forever.

Can you beleive that my laptop was dead for 5 days and was revived yesterday at 9:38pm. The first thing it said to me was HOW COULD YOU? I teared, my brain was back.

Man, I have so much to say, yet nothing else seems to reveal itself.. all I keep getting is ..put the lime in the coke u nut...

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I LOVE THIS SITE! WORTH ABOUT 46576554677 SKITTLES! [26 Mar 2005|11:15pm]
Books just wanna be FREE! See what I mean? :
click to see
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free prints [25 Mar 2005|08:48pm]
Do you have a digital camera?
Would you like to print out those special images?
Well comment with your email and I will send you the link to get 20 free 4x6 prints.

I received my 20 free prints and they are beautiful, they are printed on glossy kodak paper AND you can also send in 1 35mm roll of film to print free too!

so comment now with an email and I will send you the info on how to sign up for the free prints!
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ATTENTION [11 Mar 2005|10:28am]
ok so you dont want to complete offers? click below to sign up for a site that send you emails to read.. all you need to do is click on the link they give you , have it open for 20 seconds and then confirm that you read it by clicking the link below the ad. thats it. You can also complete surveys and offers for money but emails are easy. You wont get rich over night but hey , you already check your email so why not get paid to read another one.

click here to see my earnings so farCollapse )
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[10 Mar 2005|05:19pm]
Go herefor one of these gifts:
low low low referals, cant beat this place!just do the keen offer! easy! just deposit a buck! ;)

20GB Ipod
Motorola Razr
Apple Ibook
Archos 500619 AV420 20 GB Video Player
Apple Mac Mini
Sony DSC-T1
$200 Paypal
Nintendo DS
Apple Mini Ipod
Sony Psp
Panasonic TC-22LT1 22 in. EDTV LCD Television
Dell Inspiron XPS Gen 2
Dell Inspiron 9300
Dell 42" Enhanced Definition Plasma TV
Dell UltraSharp 2405FPW 24-inch Wide Aspect Flat Panel LCD Monitor
Dell Axim X50 520MHz
Dell Pocket DJ 4 GB
Dell Photo All-In-One Printer 922
60GB Ipod Photo
Ipod Shuffle(512MB)
Allienware Area-51m 7700
Alienware Aurora ALX
Technics 1200mk2
Pioneer Djm-600 dj mixer
Razor Ground Force Electric Go-cart
$1000 Paypal
PlayStation 2
iRiver Digital Audio Player and Image Viewer with 5.0GB* Hard Drive
DELL E153FP 15-inch Flat Panel Color LCD Monitor
$200 EBgamers Giftcard
200 Newegg Giftcard
$200 Footlocker Giftcard
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[02 Mar 2005|12:23pm]



The easiest offer is netflix, free 30 day trial without paying a penny but a valid CC is required and you can not have an account with them already.

Let me know if you do it so i can pay you once it turns green. thanx!

If you want to pay to get referals OR get paid to complete referals, click below!

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the internet peace [25 Feb 2005|11:14pm]
Today as I started my day trying to pay a damn cable bill, I quickly realized how much I depend on the internet for my sanity. Its the place where I can let go , reinvent myself , open up shop for any new small business ideas or just plain surf sites for 2 cents a day. Man, the life of a struggling breastfeeder. So now as I sit here finally temporarily relieved of my motherly duties, Im excited about finishing a few online projects, with no distrations! No baby yelling, no 6 year old prancing around the tv with her heels and goth makeup, lol! shh dont tell her that. I lost my internet today for almost 4356224 hours or it seemed like it and I felt lost. I felt like a piece of me was missing.

Although I had all this chaos going on around me all I could think about was my email piling up or missing an auction I'm watching or wondering how my for-sale items were doing. The first thing I did when I got it back was check my email and just as I thought there were 47364763423 emails in junkmail, which 1/2 the time are not really junk but just filtered that way. For some reason I have signed up for like 4384734 offers and 43483840980 freestuff sites but none have worked out for me yet. I guess it TAKES TIME! I like to say that instead of LAZY BASTIDS WONT SIGN UP! Thats all I will say about that.

Im in my own little microcosm and I dont know if thats a good thing or a bad thing but ITS JUST WHERE I AM RIGHT NOW!

MY online companions , bless their heart, keep me focused, humored, and RICH. lol

Somewhere in all this I had a point to make but right now Im getting too tired to continue and I must get on with my alone time. I must focus! Hasta next time.

wordtothamutha <33

ps. sorry if I left ya hangin.
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bday aftermath [18 Feb 2005|08:32am]
So we went to my mom's house and hubby happened to get there as we were getting there and he knew to go because I caved. I wasnt going to tell him but when I told him to go to my mom's after work he didnt want to go so I said something like, "not even if its my birthday?". So he was shocked at how he forgot and so when we got to my mom he quickly presented me with really cool looking cards. ASSKISSER! HE gave me more money on top of the other chunk he had given me.So original! GEEZ! It was a weird dinner. AS we ate hubby snored , he was so tired, I guess. The top of my cake was bald. The top icing had gotten stuck to the box. The candles were my age, a 2 and a 9. That was very weird to see. I dont think I have ever had numbers on my cake. Im just hoping next year I get a surprise party or something more ALIVE! My mom cooked my favorite, shrimp parmigiana. mmmm. The baby caused a soda accident and there was pepsi everywhere even on my "Im dressed up in my non jeans" outfit.

I might be making some decent money babysitting two kids. One all day and her sister after school. I'm glad because I wont be caring for the other child anymore. She was being a bully to my daughter and I just can't have that. The girl has issues.

but don't we all?

wordtothamutha. <33

btw. thank you to freshintellect and 1supadivinemama for completeing offers. luv ya! and thank you to those who helped me with that for my bday. NOONE!!! SO THANK YOU ;)i love you too! *rolls eyes* second chance
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Another year another entry [17 Feb 2005|12:55pm]
[ mood | grateful ]

Every year on my birthday I try to reflect upon the past year trying to figure out what my life means to me at this age. This morning as I pushed the stroller to the grocery store and waved my hair in the cold air because I finally fixed it up to look nice for a change, and as I waited for the traffic light to change nothing deep or meaningful came to mind. All I thought about is whether or not I should take the walk to petland to pick up some Nature's Miracle to clean up fudge's pee stains. Its the stuff made of an enzyme to remove odor and stains and the dog will no longer smell it with its 20x smelling instrument. As I was half way there I remembered that they didnt open till 10, FREAKIN BASTIDS! I decided to get dressed up today and by dressed up I mean out of my jeans and tank top. My best friend was the first one to wish me Happy Birthday with a card I got yesterday, Thank you palcarajo. I love you. My youngest sister was the first to call me this morning and then my mom, then my father , then my other sister, then my cousin. As you can see I havent mentioned hubby in that list. So, when I was walking back from the store he was all I thought about. What is so hard about remembering the birthday of someone you have been with for 7 years!? NOTHING! Anyway, Im not going to tell him and I have decided to let the guilt be his punishment.

Anyway, when I burped the baby she happened to spit up on my whole "Im dressed up in my non jeans" outfit and right then and there I figured it all out! That is what life is all about. No not the spit up literally but the taking in of things that are important to your survival only to produce something that may not always be as pleasant but definitely worth it. I have absorbed some pretty important knowledge and experience this past year, like never before and the outcome hasnt always been the one expected or most pleasureable but they have definitely made me who I am right now and Im glad to at least see that about myself. I thank lj for being that supportive through this year because it allowed me to free myself in ways I couldnt in my everyday life.

To all wondering where I have gone, I have been at my new home, EBAY. Im addicted. Im not only buying but selling. So it keeps me busy and I did a project fir hubby and it has motivated me to finish the rest of my work. I want to come back here to read up on everybodies journal but that day is not today. Today I will try to make my day a happy one and maybe just maybe I can turn 29 gracefully. I thought about maybe going to go get a manicure but definitely out of the question with baby and then I thought maybe a pedicure but the thought of me plopping out my boob in from of some chinita only to hear her tell the other girls schidsdjhjkaslajd, is out of the question. Ahh, the life of a mom!

again, anyone interested in making me happy can go here. kthxbi

wordtothamutha <3

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Bday gift [06 Feb 2005|04:34pm]
ok so my bday is coming up and there is something I want..

its so easy to do so c'mon whip out your credit cards and complete an offer..pleeeaseee!!! ;) <33

Free ipods

remember you can always cancel after 10 days so that you wont get charged on the free trail ones.

I will love you to pieces for this , thanx!

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